I just dont know what to do...

I cant sleep, iv been in and out of moods quite a lot over the last few days and I think my boyfriend is going to split up with me after a little over two years of being together... I love him so much and i dont want to lose him, but what am I supposed to do?

I'm depressed and think I have a few mental health problems which doesnt help.

I feel like I keep losing the people I'm close to, first my nan (died) and then my mum (pretty much moved to france) and now it feels like I might lose my boyfriend, I wish I had someone to talk to right now and someone to give me a huge cuddle but its getting a little late and no one has awnsered the text i sent them so I'm guessing they are asleep.

I find it hard to trust people which is kinda awful, a part of me wants to do something stupid like quite college and give up on going to uni, self harm again and things like that.

I need HELP!!!!

Well as some of you know I have the internet back woo!! Went with a new provider cuz the old one SUCKED!!!

Now the next thing to decide to go wrong is my iPod *sighs* this is teh suck!!
It is out of warranty by a long time I think so I will have to pay for repairs... Even more suck...
My poor iPod just doesnt want to charge be it on the computer or through the mains (thats what the problem is) WHY!!! I had it for a while and havent been mean to it like drop it or anything like that T 3T

If it comes to it I might buy a new one, but I am poor an need a job. Although if I am lucky I might be able to get one for Christmas *hopes*
I'm kinda thinking about the new iPod Nano in green *grins* but I dont like the idea of having to replace the old one (iPod Video) cuz I lovez it sooo much (yeah sad I know) ^^'

Anyways onto brighter news *grins* in one years time I will hopefully be going to Uni to do animation woot!! I really can't wait.
In my last year of college I will be doing Foundation Deploma in Art & Design and sadly doing maths retake in november (I was 2 marks off passing) T 3T hopefully I will pass it this time ¬ ¬
I suck at maths big time. Also I will think about trying my driving test again (*sighs* I really suck at test) Hesatation being my big problem, but hey im sure I will do it this time or its a lot of money I have just wasted (£106 in total for the test and an hours driving lesson before the test) T 3T

I can't wait until my copy of Final Fantasy Dissidia arrives, but I'm a little annoyed that its going to arrive late *sighs* I hate Game sometimes, they said I would recive it when it was relesed, but they lied *sighs so more* they did this to my boyfriend a few years ago when the Wii came out, he pre ordered it and was supposed to recive when it came out (the pre orders were supposed to be given out before they could sell the rest to the people in the shops) but he didnt recive it until a while later bacause of the demand of it. I really hope thats not what happend to me too but hey.

Rigth I think it be Beautiful Katamari timez *grins* it makes me sooooo happy and its sooo bouncy and awesome XP

Laterz!!!

Well my internet is not working for some strange reason, so my dad has decided to go with a new provider YAY!!! XP
So I should be back online in about 9 days, maybe more depends on how fast BT send us our new router and set up our internet ^^

I'm currently stealing my God parents interwebz at the moment lulz.

This had to happen when I got some new pictures to upload... sods law that is > <

Oh well life goes on *grins*

I am finaly 18 wooot XP (7th August Birthday)

Hehe I'm still playing DMC 4 and am going through Devil Hunter at the moment, I'm impressed with myself managing to get an A rank in all the levels I have done so far (even though it could be better *grins*).
I'm slowly working my way through it, am feel im doing well XP
I'm going to try and get all the achievements on it which is going to be hard but I'm not going to let that put me off > <